Now I'm here to help you
I've been where you are. I have felt that messy jumble of emotions. I've been lost, confused and stuck. I've felt like I shouldn't complain because I was lucky to have my kids. I have felt guilt at wanting more for myself beyond motherhood.
Here's the thing - we do deserve to have our own lives, with our own dreams and desires - and we deserve to make them a reality. I've done the work and now I want to help you do it too. It's not easy but it is a lot easier with someone in your corner, helping you every step of the way and asking you the right questions.
For too long mothers have had to settle for less and make themselves smaller. Less ambition, less earning potential, less time, less freedom, less them! Enough. We deserve to be in charge of our motherhood experience and do it without judgement from others and without unrealistic expectations. This is what motivates me - to give you the confidence to go bigger in motherhood, to ask for more and live life on your terms.
The great return...
When the time came to return to work a part of me thought maybe I'll reconnect to a part of me that I've lost. The one with ambition, smarts and who is good at their job. But it wasn't a great return. There were the practical things to overcome - nursery pick ups or who's job takes priority when you've a poorly little one at home. And there were the emotional things to overcome - the feeling I didn't belong anymore, not knowing how to keep clear boundaries, a missing sense of purpose, trying to prove my worth after time away. Throw into the mix a silent miscarriage and I was left completely lost, trying my best to muddle through and wondering 'is this how I truly want it to be?'
My journey into motherhood...
In 2020 I welcomed my little boy. A time that was meant to be filled with joy and real purpose absolutely floored me. Yes, there was Covid-19 to contend with but the seismic shift motherhood introduced wasn't something I was ready for. I'd read the books. I knew I loved him ferociously. It was everything I wanted. Yet I really struggled. I was angry all the time. I felt resentment building. I was lost and disconnected from the things that made me feel me. I spiralled as I spent hours questioning myself, ignoring the negative self-talk growing and getting lost in social watching other mothers seemingly get it 'right'. Guilt crept in. I didn't recognise myself, my body, my behaviours. I was deeply unsettled and felt stuck.
The motherhood rewrite
The turning point came when pregnant with my second. I knew I wanted things to be different. For life to be different and more importantly, for me to feel different. I didn't want the ovewhelm, the doubts and the guilt to be in charge. I wanted owenership over my experience of motherhood. So I went on a journey of discovery and reflection to figure out how I got back to me in motherhood and could parent on my terms. It was hard and messy and I definitely got things wrong but I also healed, let go and focused on what really mattered to me. The journey was so profound that it led me to where I am today - working for myself, guiding remarkable women like you to rewrite their own experience of motherhood so they can get more of what they want in life, work and parenthood.